To quit or not to quit??

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When Grant was born he started breastfeeding pretty much right away and he was good at it too. He did great while in the hospital, and then we took him home and his jaundice got really bad. He wouldnt eat because it took too much effort. The doctor told me that if I couldnt get him to eat he would have to be put under lights and he suggested that I give him a bottle, because it is much less work for the baby. So that is what I did. I pumped my milk, he ate and slowly got over the jaundice. By the time he had gotten over the jaundice I had lost him to the bottle and he would never go back to the breast. I was determined to give him breastmilk, not formula. So for 7 very long months I pumped and he was fed breastmilk from a bottle. I vowed not to make the same mistake with Grayson. Grayson was also a great eater from the get go, but I made sure that he was eating plenty and was not going to get jaundice. Grayson and I have definitely had our ups and downs with feeding. There have been many times that I have wanted to just quit all together, but I do feel it is very important for a baby to get mommy's milk until at least 6 months, so I told myself  if I could make it to 6 months that is when I would wean him and we would switch over to formula until he could have cow's milk at a year old. Well Grayson will be 6 months old tomorrow and last week I decided to start the weaning process. I replaced a regular feeding with a bottle and planned to slowly continue to do so until there was no more breastfeeding and all bottle feedings. But I am now having a hard time with it, which has caoght me by surprise. I have just started the weaning process and already I am missing it. For months I have been waiting for the day I could stop breastfeeding and feel ok with the decision, but now I dont want to stop. So I decided not to. I am going to continue for now. I'm not saying I am not going to give him bottles and I am not saying I wont change my mind again next week, but for now, right this minute, I am enjoying breastfeeding.